Well day 2

Well Hello again ive decided to continue to write about my life. Adi has been sick for the last 2 days so im home from work. Even tho i hate my job its a really good escape from my life, crazy how that sounds I hate my job but damn i cant wait to get there. My mom came over for lunch and chilled for awhile, that was good its nice to talk to my mom but she also sticks up for Billy cause she does like him. I dont really know what to think anymore, i want things to work with him because of Adi but on the other hand I dont want Adi to grow up in an unhappy house. Why didnt someone tell me how hard life was going to be!!! Im pry gonna make this short cause i have a bunch of things that I need to do and Billy will pry be home soon! Well im out

Life as a teen mom!

Well I guess I should start with hello! My name is Hannah and I decided that I would make a blog to kinda get some stuff off my chest and let some feelings go. I guess ill start with a little bit about my life! I'm 18 and I have a six month old daughter named Adison. Things have been a little crazy the last year. I graduated from high school in may of 2010 and then in July I gave birth to Adison Ann. She sure did turn my life upside down. My plan was to go to school to do makeup and hair but now just live in my home town. I live with my boyfriend Billy and my daughter. I currently work for blockbuster express, I answer phones for them as a customer rep, its not exciting at all and gets annoying after awhile cause I have to listen to people bitch all the time. I also plan on going back to school in the fall. I've decided because I cant go to school for cosmetology I'm gonna be a business major. Not as exciting but pays the bills. I also recently became engaged. I really don't know if that was for the better or not just puts alot of stress on my shoulders and certainly does not a relationship better. My life sure has become exciting. I went from being a carefree teen to a full time mom and fiancee'. My fiance' well that's another story. He's a great dad and can be a great companion at times but it just seems like I don't make him happy anymore, he just always in a bad mood. As soon as he comes home he's in a bad mood and that in turn put me in a bad mood. I can't really explain him I can only say he has alot of issues that i think he needs to work on. I don't want to sound like a total downer but this blog is here for me to kinda let my feeling out. I'm not so sure that I even want to marry him with the way he has been acting! I really just miss being care free. There's a girl I know she's 16 and pregnant and we've all told her how hard it is but in her mind she will be so much better off with a baby. God i wish she could walk in my shoes for a day. I all over the place all day long, either we have no money, I'm tired, in a bad mood, w/e it doesn't matter i still have to be mom. I have a few friends mostly a girl named brookly and a guy named Eric. There pretty much my best friends, they help  me threw alot of the days cause most days i just feel like breaking down and crying. My mom is there alot too! She's been trying to help alot, the help is great its just so hard mentally to deal with what my life is like! I miss being the care free person who could come and go as I pleased. After i met billy my life kinda fell apart i lost all of my friends, but the two I have now! I wish i would have known how hard this was! My life has kinda become a mess. My mom called a counselor for me to go talk to and i have to go see her on the 3rd of Feb. God i hope that helps, i didn't tell Billy i was going, i wanna do this alone! A lot of the reason I'm the way I am is because of him!! I guess I don't really know what else to say. I guess I'm gonna sign off and go to bed is 10 pm and i need some sleep! Good night to all and I'll talk to you tomorrow!